Someone put a picture up on Facebook the other day of a staff photo from my former High School. According to the silver lettering embossed on the frame, it’s from 1999. I would have been sixteen at the time, and these were the teachers I saw every single day, week in, and week out.
I am shocked by how few of them I remember.
There are two or three I am still in touch with – friends of my parents, or parents of my friends – who I could comfortably stand in the street and make conversation with. There are probably another dozen or so who I either liked or disliked a lot, and their names are still easy enough to call up in my mind. But then there’s the rest. A nameless mass of smiles and suits, made up of individuals who may or may not have once stood at the front of a classroom and imparted their wisdom to me.
I was lucky enough to go to a good school. In general, we were a well-behaved bunch who tried hard and got decent results. I can look back with fondness and say that yes, that school did a good job for six years, filling my head with ideas and ambitions before casting me out into the world to go my own way.
But I find it odd that many of the people who made that so have been erased this quickly from my memory.
There is a colourful jumble of standout moments from high school that I can recall vividly. A boy in the canteen trying to put the strap of his schoolbag over his head, and tipping a full pot of yoghurt over himself. The computer class where I went online for the first time ever, not knowing the difference between an email address and a website address. The guidance teacher who was so uncomfortable with the prospect of sex education that he showed us a video on the life cycle of a glass Coca Cola bottle instead. The school play where I had to sit in a rocking chair throughout, acting the part of an old Glasgow Granny.
But beyond that, it is mainly it is a blur. Seeing that photo the other day prompted me to root through some old boxes, to see what I still have from school. I wish I had kept more, to remind me how much I once knew. I have copies of all my report cards (conscientious, hard-working, needs to speak up more…), and one or two essays from the subjects I loved. But I had forgotten completely that I have a Standard Grade in chemistry, a Higher in Economics.
I mainly survived high school by developing a crush of fairly epic proportions on my English teacher (which thankfully he had the good grace and experience to ignore completely). I had bad hair and braces, wore purple Doc Martens and a leather skirt – it is fair to say I was not a beauty – and went the entire six years of high school without a boyfriend so I had to create my own interest somehow. He was short and smiling, and spoke with passion about Shakespeare and Salinger. It wasn’t much, but I would take what I could get, and a glance of him in the corridor between double maths and double PE brightened many a dull day.
The other thing that helped counter the monotony of school days was having a handful of friends who I hope will remain friends for life. When someone has accompanied you to buy your first bra, or picked you up after you got falling-down-drunk for the first time, that creates a bond that is hard to break. High school, more than any other time of life, is about learning to share. You share your crisps at break time; you share your Impulse spray and your glittery Miss Selfridge nail varnish before school discos; you have sleepovers where you share secrets and dreams and posters from magazines; you share your homework answers if a friend has forgotten theirs. You share the lowest of lows, like failing your driving test, and the highest of highs, like getting the exam results that let you move onto the next thing. Those are the memories that stick in your mind, long after the quadratic equations and irregular verbs have upped and gone.
High school forms us but, mercifully, it does not define us.
I would not go back there – to being sixteen years old – for all the money in the world.
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